




I wanted to try to go "natural" (meaning no epidural) with Max but it sure didn't work out that way. I was attached to pitocin, vitamins, fluids, epidural - you name it, it was on my IV tower. I am SO not opposed to an epidural, but I've always wanted to try going without.
Well, on Sunday morning at 5:05 a.m. I was brought out of my peaceful slumber by my water breaking! I hit Ty on the arm pretty hard (he's not always easy to wake up and I had to get out of bed so that I didn't ruin the mattress or something) and told him that my water broke. Shortly after, we called Labor & Delivery who said, "See you in 15 minutes!" We got the van and Max all loaded up, dropped Max off at Tutu's house and were at the hospital shortly after 6:00 a.m. By this time my contractions were just starting but weren't very strong. By about 7:30, though, they had gotten quite a bit stronger. I'd spent about 40 minutes in the jacuzzi tub (loved that!) and got out to be checked. I was dilated to a 3. Not super encouraging for me. The nurse told us to walk around the halls for a while and then she would check in on us again. We spent some time out in the halls - thank goodness for the railings! - where my contractions were getting MUCH harder. We got back in the room where I was starting to talk epidural. The nurse checked me and said that I was at a 6. The anesthesiologist was in a c-section and wouldn't be done for a half hour, so she said to just keep working through my contractions and we would make a decision once he got out. Well, she came in a little while later and asked if I just wanted him to come in or if I wanted to be checked first. I wanted to be checked. I was at an 8 1/2! I knew that I could totally do it then. This was at about 9:30 a.m. I spent most of the time up on my knees on the bed with the back of the bed up and my arms dangling over the edge. Ty was allowed to rub my lower back at that point. Okay, REQUIRED would be a more appropriate word, but I couldn't handle him touching my arms or shoulders. I get pretty silent while I am in labor, and probably even more so this time. It was a really spiritual time for me. I spent a lot of it in prayer, asking for strength to get me through each contraction. I thought a lot about the Savior and kept a picture of Him in my mind in the Garden of Gethsemane. Don't get me wrong, I also felt a lot of pain, but I am so thankful for the strength and comfort that I received. I am grateful to have the perfect empathy of the Savior to call upon. I am also so thankful for the nurse that I had! She gave me really good advice (like to keep my upper body as relaxed as possible during each contraction - hard to do when you just want to grip the railing and your husband's hand as tightly as possible, but it really helped. She also told me not to fight against the pressure. I can't explain why that was a key phrase for me, but it was) and many words of encouragement. Having the perfect man by my side also helped a ton. When he told me "you're so strong" and "you can do this" I really believed him. His arms probably got tired since I couldn't let him off of back-rubbing duty, but he never complained.
I lost track of time after about 9:30, but pretty soon I was needing to push. I had to push through the last bit of cervix and then she was right there. The doctor got there as I was pushing. I think I pushed 5 or 6 times and he was there for the final three pushes. I remember being amazed when they said that I had just pushed her little head out and that on the next push I would have a baby! Sure enough, out she came into my arms. A perfect baby girl with a very cute cry. Tears were flowing all around. We are so in love with her. We're amazed by her head of dark hair since Tyler and I were both blonde and somewhat bald. She's also got an olive skin tone which is strange coming from her pale parents. We love having a baby in our home. I love thinking about her spirit and what she is like and who she will become. I am in awe of this whole process and of the trust that Heavenly Father places in us to raise His children and to return them Home to Him. I love that Tyler and I are in this together. He is such an amazing and thoughtful father. Oh, we are so blessed!
I am feeling really good. I was up and around right after she was born. I had two days where I was easily worn down, but today especially I am feeling fabulous! Ty has taken this whole week off and I have to say that I have the best husband. I really want the world to know just how great he is. I haven't had to worry about anything. Yesterday all of the laundry was done and the house has been regularly tidied up. I receive continuous reminders to not "be a hero" and take it easy as well as reminders to drink water. He even brings me water while I'm nursing. He has been amazing and I wish that he could ALWAYS be at home. I love being around him. He and Max have had a lot of fun bonding time as well and Max has been loving it. A favorite activity has been tower building. They also went to the park and ran errands the other day. I am going to love having these two little people! We went to Target today to get a few things and a lady asked me if I'm feeling overwhelmed since Max and Kelly are so close in age. I guess that I've had my moments where I am just nervous about being a great mom to two kids, but I don't feel stressed about the age thing at all. This is the way that we wanted it and I am sure that it will have its challenges, but I love that they are so close in age! He's had a few moments of jealousy (like he wants to be on my lap when I'm nursing Kelly) and a few fits, but mostly he loves to kiss her and see what she's doing. We love our little man...here are some pictures of him as well.


